8:02pm, April 4th, 2024, Desk, UT My time management skills are garbage. How do I know? Because I had 10 extra hours in my day today to get things done. I got less done today than other days where I had more structure. Which goes back to the thing I mentioned about 75 Hard being harder if you have more days off from your job. Or just more freetime in general.  Also came to the realization today that you cannot do it alone and that it’s okay to have others help you in your journey. Mentors, friends, family, whatever. Take advantage of what’s around you. I’ll dedicate a show to that in the future.  If I do not get in the ice bath tomorrow morning before work (3:30am), I am going to do 1,000 push ups before bed. I will not break my word. 168 of 7305 @brquse  

8:13pm, April 3rd, 2024, Desk, UT  Taxing day mentally, so, low effort on this one (I’m sure it’ll be funny to look back on this in 6 years to see how this easy peasy taxing day was so hard for me now). Quick mini-updates in this one. Also hit 400 downloads today was which very cool. Fastest we’ve hit 100 which was 11 days. I’m averaging about 5-7 listens per new episode now and then a few extra from past ones. Very cool to see this happen in real time slowly. 167 of 7305. @brquse

8:32pm, April 2nd, 2024, Desk, UT Everyone knows what the golden rule is. Treat others how you want to be treated right? The actual origin I believe is “Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.” Meaning… Act the way you want others to act toward you… right? So… I don’t want a christmas gift, so I’m not buying you one. Or I don’t want you at my wedding, so I’m not going to yours. Or I don’t want you to talk to me, so I’m not going to talk to you. Or I’m not going to your birthday party, so I don’t want you at mine. Is this not the golden rule? Just one of the many thoughts I have about things.  166 of 7305. @brquse

8:34pm, April 1st, 2024, Desk, UT I’ve been learning about creating offers that are so good people feel stupid saying no. Today was my first AHA moment where it clicked for me. It felt empowering as hell. So that is what I’ll be working on and crafting up from here on out until launch day comes. Very excited to have that sense of direction in the business and growth sense. I’ve been working on myself aggressively for the last 8 months and now I get to see what this new sharpened version of me is capable of. Hell yes. Very excited.

8:06pm, March 32nd, 2024, Desk, UT I've come to the realization that after 165 episodes, that I will in fact continue making more episodes after this.  April Fools. Gottem. Damn. 

8:55pm, March 31st, 2024, FedEx Truck, Magna UT I’ll be 100% honest here, I can’t remember what I talked about. I’m writing this hours later and my brain is fried. What a day huh.  Also, I don’t like the fact I’m just leaving it at that. But I also love the fact that I am because it documents the journey in real time. It shows the fact that I’m flawed and make mistakes. That’s what makes it more relatable to someone who might be listening in 17 years. So for the sake of documenting everything, hell yes.

7:17pm, March 30th, 2024, Desk, UT I am stoked to have the amount of options that I do to record in. Garage, bedroom living space, wherever. I like the idea of the garage because it’s unusual, yet poetic in the long term. I’m going to be more intentful with the day to day I share on here because that is the point of the show to begin with. To document the day to day. And I feel like I haven’t been doing that. So there’s that part. The last part of the show here is how I am going to crunch some financial goals in the next 6 years and make some very ignorant goals based on my lack of context and knowledge. But it’ll be fun to look back on in 12 years. Also, goals aren’t permanent. You can change the numbers, times, dates, whatever. No one talks about that. Anyway, sorry for absolutely screaming.

11:44pm, March 29th, 2024, Desk, UT I now realize it’s not the 30th. Whoops. Anyway, yeah I need to start doing the harder shit first. That’s pretty much the entire show right there. Also, I recorded with my phone on my bed. The quality is 100% better than using my mic and investing in sound proofing panels. Funny how people think you need the best equipment for quality but in all reality all you need is a bed and a phone. Night & day if you ask me.

10:12pm, March 28th, 2024, Desk, UT Title says it all for this one. You can really avoid a lot of struggles and hardships in life if you just suck it up and work harder than everyone else. That truly is the beginning and end of the lesson here. Take this and run with it.

7:30pm, March 27th, 2024, Desk, UT  For one, it’s always something. There’s always 1 little thing that shows up. I’m going to coin this the Law of Always 1. There is ALWAYS something that was missed, overlooked, or forgotten. Today ran smooth, except I need to sleep in 30 minutes and have 58oz of water to down still. Great. I’ve had those brutal self doubts coming in hot the last few days. So much so it sparks a mental conversation. Dangerous territory usually, but I have done a good job building up my defenses to that horseshit. We keep movin’.

7:15pm, March 26th, 2024, Desk, UT Little dilemma here is that it’s very difficult to get good quality work in when I am tired as shit. My schedule is fairly “fit” in the sense that there’s not much wiggle room to move things around and experiment. The one thing I could do is swap my sleep schedule to be from 8-3am to 3-10pm. Then live life between the hours of 10 and 4am. That would put the gym and my job at the backend of my day, allowing me to work on my own shit when I am at my freshest. What a world flip that would be though. Not a good idea, but it is an idea none the less. And I don’t feel like I am doing shit either. I am in for a rude awakening my friends.

7:59pm, March 25th, 2024, Desk, UT (Shitty airpod quality). I have 2 podcasts. This is one. The other is not yet out, but it is going to be the “professional” one that focuses on bringing a ton of value. Guests, quality, video, youtube, etc are all to come with that one. This one is just meant to document the day to day as it happens in real time. For no other reason than to be here for the people who might listen in 17 years. That’s the vision.

6:11pm, March 24th, 2024, Desk, UT I spent a good chunk of the morning today writing this podcast out, designing the cover art, and putting it altogether. I found immense joy in doing this despite being stressed off my ass. I feel incredible now having gotten it done. Like Episode 100, I’m going to just drop the entire word doc of notes of this show in this description below. I covered vulnerable, personal, nitty gritty details of my life in this one for the sole purpose of serving as a reference point and milestone for future listeners (10+ years). This makes me feel weird to drop it now, knowing my coworkers, friends, or whomever can listen and know ever detail about me. Let alone the millions of strangers. But anyway, here’s the show notes:   Re-Intro To The Show & Re Brand: Crazy to think how far we’ve come here, but how little it is in the big picture.  I did 100 episodes without telling a soul. I had 6 rules. Couldn’t tell anyone. No guests, just me. Had to be 20 minutes long. Had to have some sort of takeaway or value No cuts or edits or removing anything Had to upload 5 a week. Started recording a podcast as part of Live Hard Phase 1. Failed phase 1 on day 25 of 30, but kept on with the podcasts. 5 months later here we are. My ultimate goal with this podcast specifically is to document everything from ground zero to the top floor as the intro says. Cool to see day to day of modern day leaders like Andy, Musk, Goggins, Hormozi, celebrities, authors, philosophers, etc. Really anyone you look up to and aspire to be like. Imagine being able to go back and listen to the day to day of your favorite celebrity, author, whatever, etc., years before they even had the idea to do whatever they are known for know. Imagine listening, live, to them develop their idea to pursue their thing. HOW SICK would that be. As intro says, it goes without saying, but I believe I’ll make it there. That’s what this podcast is about. I want people who aren’t even born yet to be able to look back at these episodes when they are 20 years old and see where I’m starting from, where I’m at, my conditions, circumstances, and see what I did to help them either relate to me, not feel alone, and just serve as proof that anyone can do this shit. You just have to be willing to start right now and look like a dumbass for a few decades.  I did 75 hard and it changed my entire life. I’ll always preach the benefits of that program. I’ll always be a fanboy of it. It truly changed my entire life and I will never not do it. It proved to me very quickly that I’ve been living a mediocre life and that I am capable of living an exceptional one. It proved to me that I have the potential to do big things. It showed me that I am tough, I can develop discipline, I can escape a depressing life, I can keep my word to myself, I can remain committed, I can battle through hard days, and I can win the day, every day. You’re listening to this episode because the program showed me that giving up is actually harder than not.  What is BED? Better Each Day? Bryson Every Day? Business, Excellence, & Discipline? Be Exceptional Daily? The original idea was to go from bq.Daily to Bryson Every Day. Business Excellence, Discipline just so happened to be BED as well. Then I thought better each day. So it’s whatever the hell floats your boat. This is the bed show. Gonna put our old selves to sleep.  The idea is to make another podcast that is refined and polished with strict focus on professionalism, organization, and quality that focuses on what it takes to actually get to where you want to go. This podcast is the day to day behind the scenes, more personal to me, more nitty gritty details and random shit. It’s more about the thoughts and ideas that cross my mind and I share them without organization or thinking it through. It’s to show the vulnerable side and realness of a man who desires more out of life and what actually, really, literally happens behind the scenes.  So with that being said, the rest of this podcast is going to go into personal detail of my life and where I’m at. Wages, interests, jobs, time schedule, priorities, family, etc. For no other reason than to give an insight to the hand I’m playing with. Some may have it easier, some may have it harder. But here we go. 3 Jobs: Hill Air Force Base - I repair F35 Fighter Jet canopies so the pilot can see out. $26.68/hr, scheduled to go to $28.52 in the Summer, $29.66 in October, and $31.14 in Winter of ’25. FedEx Driver - I deliver boxes $170 per day no matter what, $1 after 135 stops. I do about 165-205 daily, which is $200-240 a day. About 6 hours worth of work. Which is $33-40/hr. Truck Washer - Clean FedEx Trucks $200 a day for 1 hour drive, 6 hours wash, 1 hour drive. - $33 hour Work Schedule: M-F Hill AFB - Sat FedEx - Sun Truck Wash M-Th Hill AFB - Fri & Sat FedEx - Sun Off One day off per 14 days. Pay Schedule: Hill AFB - Biweekly. FedEx & Wash - Weekly Pay Amount: With taxes, insurance, etc, net pay amounts are roughly: Hill AFB - $1400 Bi, soon to be $1640 FedEx & Truck Wash - $540 on week, $180 the next. Schedule: 3:45am wake Prep for work 4:30 Drive to work and work till 2:30pm, 2:45-3:45pm-ish gym 4-7 OT hours (29 a week if rest 2 days from gym). 7-8 prep for bed. 8 to 815 fall asleep. Sleep 815-345 - 7.5hr sleep. FOR FEDEX IT IS THE SAME, JUST PUSHED BACK A FEW HOURS, WITH 3 ADDITIONAL HOURS TO WORK ON MY SHIT BECAUSE OF BED-TIME BEING LATER DUE TO WAKE UP TIME BEING LATER THE NEXT DAY Sundays I am free all day. 29 hours one week, 39 the next. With an average of 34 hours per week to dedicate to anything I want. Which is just development, business, reading, podcasting, writing, etc. For context, the average x5/wk 9-5 guy who hits the gym for an hour x4 a week, with my same schedule, would have an extra 20-30 hours than I do. I don’t socialize outside of work.  I don’t hang with friends unless it is something that benefits me, such as the gym. I rarely see my family. I should spend more time with them but I don’t. It is what it is.  I am single.  No kids.  At the time of recording I am living with Uncle & Aunt, but in June I’ll be solo again. Bills: $2000 approx - Rent, Utilities, Internet, Water, Taxes, ETC - ALL $400 per mo groceries / 100 weekly $180 gas per mo / $60 for 10 days approximately  $260 for car payment, soon to be paid off by November $95 for car insurance  $50 student loans $91 phone bill Spotify, $10 Adobe Suite $30, soon $60 PodBean $ 15 Dropbox $15 iCloud $5 Google Photos $2 Recently paid off $6k in loans and credit cards. All the extra money I get from what I do now goes straight to bills. Goal to be debt free by the end of the year, even after I get my own place in June. Groceries & Gas are rounded up to er on the side of caution. Probably less. Come Winter ’25, I’ll be able to pocket an avg of $2100/mo. Meaning I make $2100 more than I spend per month. Cool. All to business. ——————————— Drive Time: Hill AFB - now 20-30 mins pending traffic Soon to be 8-12 mins FedEx - Now 20-25 - traffic Soon to be - 22-27 Wash - now 46-60 mins pending traffic Soon to be 30-40 mins I don’t watch movies or TV hardly ever. For no other reason than no interest. I mute everyone I follow on IG so I don’t see their stories or posts. I keep the valuable pages I follow unmuted so I can learn from them. Such as frisealla, hormozi, Elliot, huberman, etc.  Don’t know shit about mainstream anything. I follow a bit of politics. I really only have interest in self dev, reading, fitness, learning, basketball (lakers). Really can’t think of anything else I truly care about.  ————————————————— Diet: Eating 225g+ protein per day and on a streak of 55 days. Gallon water, streak 55 days. Track all my food - 55 days streak. Typically 230-250 protein, 400-500 carbs, 70-120 fats. Not strict with the amounts, just as long as I get 225g protein. “Bulking” at the moment. Traditional Chest back shoulders legs split. 12-15 sets per muscle group 6-9 per smaller Have a pass that allows me to go to any gym I want. Active & Fit now. I get nothing for sharing it. Vasa, EOS, Snap, Hill AFB Gym(s), Random Gyms =————————————————————— 2 herniated sis in L4-5 and L5-6 - Yes I have 6 lumbar vertebrae. Sick. Very painful sometimes. Othertimes can’t feel it. Mentally and emotionally exhausting when it does hurt. Physically it hurts but I beat myself up about it. ———————————————————— Listening to Real AF Andy frisealla The Game by hormone recently Huberman lab podcast Modern wisdom Chris Williamson BED Podcast, you might have heard of it _________________________________________________________ Reading self help books. Focus now on learning something instead of a page count. Highlight and mark in book.  100m offers Hormozi, thinking fast and slow Daniel kahneman  ———————————————————————————— I Read 12/mo to 1M by Ryan Danial Moran, idea was to start my own pre workout. Running with that, in sample process. Discouraged sometimes lol. ————————————————————————— Technically a college dropout. 3 semesters. Did fine each one, decided it was bullshit and I opted out. —————————————————————————————— Been in 3 relationships. 2 of which ended because my desire to move to a new location was greater than staying with the partner. Relationships were 18-20yrs old, 23 to 25, and 26. I’ve moved out of my mom’s 3 times. School, GF house, St George. Between 2021 and 2023 I moved from Northern UT to St G, to PHX AZ x2, to CO x1, to Northern UT, now moving yet again. —————————————————————————— Competed in mens physique show age 19, won teens, 2nd natty, 2nd true novice, tied 3td novice, 6th open, 168lbs approx at 6’0. Wanna compete again, but not priority. —————————————————————————————————— Ran businesses in past kind of. Fitness Coaching - 2 years Photography - 2 years Videography (fav) - ongoing, haven’t done it in years though. Graphic design - off and on, small, for fun ————————————————————————————————— Bit about me: Always loved numbers. I love math. I love things like puzzles, Rubik’s cubes, etc. I like thinking. I like to try and figure out better ways to do shit. I like to innovate where I can, no matter how ghetto.  Now, I like to do hard shit. Discipline is the way. I like to learn I like to get better.  Lived in 3 different states, been to maybe 12 states? Never out of country. —————————————————— Been in 3 mastermind groups - none of which “worked” for me because I was lazy and didnt implement what was taught. I was too bitch. I spent a lot of money on them and learned the hard way, 3 times. So be defirtnion I haven’t learned shit. Also signed with a modeling agency, then proceeded to do nothing about it because I felt insecure lol. This was while I was in my last semester of college where I dropped out in Orem UT, Utah Valley Uni. WSU, ISSA Online, UVU I have like 7 certifications through ISSA. Never once was asked if I was certified when I was a fitness coach. Interesting lol.  ———————————————————————————— Order of employment  Grocery store 1, Grocery store 2 - 3-4 years, all positions. Behavior tech for 2 years. Sold cars for a month Sold gym memberships for a month Did my own fitness business for a while, then got rehired at grocery store. Then moved, then got with Fedex because I wanted to be outside. Fedex carried me through states, now in UT Now with Hill AFB  Now truck washing. Now FedEx ————————————————————————— Pretty much run my whole life off Excel.  When I was little I wanted to be an NBA all star, a pro skater, a BMX rider, a video game designer, an architect, an exercise equipment designer, a trainer. ————————————— Grew up LDS. Haven’t been to church in almost 11 years. Don’t necessarily know what I believe in as far as a higher being goes, and I truly never ever ever think about it. I’m agnostic by definition I guess.  ——————————————————————— Grandma had 5 kids, my mom was obviously one of them, so I grew up with a large family. Loved that aspect of family for gatherings and such. Im the oldest sibling by 9 years, oldest grandchild by 7yrs, and oldest great grandson by idk how many.  ——————————————————————— And yeah, here I am. That’s a little summary about me. The reason I share all of these personal ass details is to serve as a point of reference for those listening in 14 years.  If I could go back and listen to Andy Frisella back when he was running his first every supplement store, it would be so sick to hear him talk about his past, previous job, his current financial standpoint, how he spends his time, what his parities then were, what his interests are. For example, there might be someone out there who doesn’t watch TV or movies either and probably gets made fun of for it. Maybe hearing me talk about it can help them not feel so “weird” or “dorky” and help them feel a sense of belonging.  Maybe if I knew that Andy and I worked the same schedule at the same age, it woukd help me feel like I’m on the right path. He did it, so am I, so I just be onto something right?

10:51pm, March 23rd, 2024, Desk, UT I was brainstorming today about how I could make the energy cost of my life go down so that I had more in the tank when it comes time to work on myself. Some of the things that I can do is stop caring about certain aspects and focus on what actually matters most. I place a lot of weight on certain things that just don’t matter. That costs me mental energy. I want to make it so that I go about my day spending as little as possible that I am fully loaded (or as close as I can be) to get my own shit going. It is so difficult to sit down and force myself to read for example when I am absolutely fried. That’s no winning strategy.

6:45pm, March 22nd, 2024, Desk, UT Why should I? Why should you? For what reason? For what purpose? Why? Ask yourself questions. Ask other people questions. Be okay with being wrong but learning faster as a result. The opposite of that is fearing failure and learning exponentially slower. Easy choice if you value growth and learning. I think we, collectively, need to start spending more time in our own heads instead of filling it with literally anything else. Play the devils advocate for yourself. Ask yourself why a dozen times. You’ll be surprised by what you uncover. We need more critical-thinking-able people in the world. I’m working my way to becoming as great of a deep thought provoker as I can, because I believe that’s where a lot of buried treasure resides. Social norms are just that, social norms. Are you normal? No? Well then start questioning the social norms that are sent your way. Follow the ones that make sense for you, get rid of the ones that don’t. Thinking out loud. Also ran through a ChatGPT exercise with this live on this episode. At face value, those are all good reasons to have friends, but do you value friends in those regards? Do you need what friends have to offer? Can you provide the effort and energy to those friends to maintain the friendship in the first place? What is harder for you? What’s easier? Think about this stuff for yourself.

7:32pm, March 21st, 2024, Desk, UT I didn't do shit all day today. I guess when I say "all day" I am referencing the three hour gap that I have after I get off of work and the time before I have to go to bed. It feels like such a waste when I just sit here and do nothing. I beat myself up quite a bit because of it. And I think because I do that, I get very worn out mentally because I am beating myself up over something I could've done but didn't. And so I get very fatigued thinking about the lack of inaction. It's a vicious cycle.It's funny because I slept great last night and got a lot of rest, but I am even more tired today than I was a previous days, and I know that that is only because I didn't execute on shit today. Also, a little behind the scenes here, I am writing this voice chat, and I have to say the punctuation marks. This feels very weird. Documenting everything. Let's go baby.

8:07pm, March 20th, 2024, Desk, UT All sorts of emotions in this one. I am grateful. I am stressed. I am feeling serendipitous. I am feeling exhausted. I’ve got myself committed to so much right now and sometimes I feel like I am trying to swim with a cinderblock tied to my ankle. And the cold hard truth is I’m not even doing anything yet. I’m just spending all my free time trying to learn and educate so that I can build something from nothing for no other reason (now) than to get into the game and learn the game. Life is a crazy ride. Make sure you’re the one behind the wheel.

8:14pm, March 19th, 2024, Bedroom, UT I have been gamifying my life by tracking multiple areas and trying to see patterns so that I can best recreate the better days and be as productive as I possibly can. One of the things I have recently incorporated is that I set a timer for when I work on myself/business/dreams/goals/etc., and don’t allow myself to do anything else until the timer is done. I can either work, or I can sit there. But that’s it. When the timer is up, I then allow myself to check my phone if needed or rest my eyes or whatever it may be.  I have had 2 days in a row now where I have been very productive and gotten a lot done. It’s been a great addition to everything by gamifying it all. I want to keep this consistency and keep the productivity as high as I can. I feel great about everything I did today. I got a lot done. More so than I have been getting down in the last few weeks. It’s all about sustainability. Whatever you can adhere to the longest is your winning strategy. Make it as easy as possible for you to stick with. There’s no shame in that. Consistency compounds.

5:52pm, March 18th, 2024, Desk, UT I opted out of my retirement investments. I no longer am putting money into my retirement plan. Here’s why in a nutshell:  If you invest $200 per month starting at age 20 with an average annual return of 7% compounded monthly, you could potentially have $824,200 by age 60 (the numbers could be off, I don’t care enough to make them exact. It’s for illustrative purposes only). That’s 40 years. That’s 14610 days. That’s on average, $56 a day. You’re telling me that in order for me to make the same amount of money by investing into my retirement, I only need to sell two $28 (profit) products per day?  First off, how many businesses do you know who are 40 years strong ONLY making $56 a day. Probably 0. Meaning they probably make a shit ton more than that and a lot earlier too.  Second, why settle for $824,000 by age 60 (which, if you spend 50k a year, will only last you 16 years. What about age 76-100+?) when you can quite literally run a business for 20-40 years and reach a point where you could take home $824,000 per month. Or even a week. Think about that. And I get it, we all have different desires, visions, goals, aspirations, you name it. I get that, and that’s okay. But that seems so blatantly obvious to me what the better option is. I’d rather pocket $100 per week in myself than a fund that gives me 8%. You can take $100 a week and invest into 5 books. All it takes is one sentence in one of those books to give you enough information or confidence to get you to $100,000 a year. Then $1m a year. Then 5m a year. Then $1m a month, etc. And I’d be the one in control the entire time too. I would call the shots.  Of course this alls pounds great on paper, it’s a lot harder work with more “risk.” But I think it’s a bigger risk not taking any risks at all.  Disclaimer, do not do anything I said in this podcast. Consult your financial advisor before making any financial decisions. Everything in this podcast is for entertainment purposes only and should not be taken seriously.

3:37pm, March 17th, 2024, Car/Gym, UT I actually felt good about this one. It makes me feel like I actually have something valuable to share with the world when I can (at least I feel this way) nail a particular idea. Progress baby. But anyway, I’m going to copy and paste my notes I wrote for this. I didn’t write the notes for this episode, I just write here and there. Sometimes I put a lot more work into it, other times it’s a couple sentences like I talked about yesterday. The purpose of this one was to help me understand that people will always pick you apart. The people who do this need the most help. They are also the ones who cannot be helped. It is what it is. But putting some light on it and thinking it through helps. No matter what, it’ll always be easier for you and harder for someone else. I haven’t even started virtually anything yet and I’m getting comments thrown my way. It’s interesting. So here is the exact note I wrote: I keep thinking about when I “make it.” There’s going to be people who say the only reason I was able to get to where I’m at is because I don’t have kids. Okay, I don’t have kids. There’s validity to that argument. Kids take up time and resources. Correct. Let’s say I have a kid then.  There will be people who say the only reason I was able to get to where I’m at is because I only have 1 kid. Okay, I have just 1 kid. There’s validity to that argument. Surely, having 2 kids is more time consuming and more financially demanding than just one. Fair. Let’s say I have 3 kids then. There will be people who say the only reason I was — Get it? “Of course you make a lot of money. I’d have a lot of money to if all I did was waste my life away working.” Fair statement. What’s inaccurate is the use of the word “waste,” which is subjective based on personal values. “No wonder you are able to do all this. You don’t socialize, see your family, or talk to friends!” I think this is interesting because that assumes that in order to be at any point in life that is identical to me, you cannot socialize, see your family, or talk to friends. Surely people have “made it” while doing the previously mentioned things. It goes back to personal values. “You have no balance. All you do is look after yourself. I’d be able to afford that too if I didn’t have any responsibilities other than myself.” Correct. Unbalanced circumstances lead to outsized returns. Being unbalanced is often seen as bad. But why is it bad? Suppose I get a kick out of being the highest on the teeter totter rather than being at the lowest. My enjoyment, then, stems from the literal unbalanced load on the teeter totter. I am therefore at my highest (no pun intended) and enjoying my time being on an unbalanced ride. It is a desired position to be in — for me. So, in other words. My desires, independent of the sacrifices or trade-offs, lead me to happiness, fulfillment, and abundance. That is absolutely correct. If the person I hop on the teeter totter with wants to go up and down, they’re seeking balance. I am not. 2 goals. 2 outcomes. Nothing bad. Nothing good. It’s preference based on desired outcome. “Yeah you have a Lamborghini but you traded half your life to have it. At least I have memories.” Correct. Big goals take a lot of time to achieve. Giant goals take an even longer time to reach. And monumental goals take decades. I “traded” half my life to buy this car because of what the achievement means to me. And by “trade” I mean I swapped Netflix, drinking, guys night out, drugs, doom scrolling, bitching, gossiping, and time wasting activities for intentional work I found joy in. I willingly sacrificed a lot to make this happen. This goal got me out of bed in the morning and got me to work hard. I helped a lot of people in the process and also missed out on a lot. If everyone owned a Lamborghini, there would be nothing special about it at all. This goal gave me direction. Without this goal, I’d be living a nightmare. Which is the social norm of today’s world. 9-5, Netflix at night, drinking on weekends, miserable, fat, and lazy in the mean time. No thank you. I got a steal. I’m only 38 and own a Lamborghini.   

10:11pm, March 16th, 2024, Desk, UT Something I have been doing recently is immediately writing down my thoughts as they come to me that are of some sort of value – at least to me. I think sometimes I have very unique perspectives and thoughts arise, so I've been trying to save each of them by writing them in my notes app on my phone to refer back on later and add to or write more about. It’s been a great way to brain dump my thoughts. Some aren't half bad. No other updates, just trying to work hard and keep afloat. Reverse engineering your thinking is a great exercise to get to the root cause of something, too.

11:16pm, March 15th, Desk Chair, UT Title says it all man. Unproductive. Still got everything done, but it was executed so poorly. I mean its 11:18pm as i write this. I had all day. Live & learn.

2:47pm, March 14th, 2024, Car, UT I think the story in this episode of how I let my insecurities bleed is a perfect example of how our perception and views, based on our values, can lead us to act and behave certain ways depending on the context. For example, in the story here, I previously felt $2000 was a lot for rent. Anyone who I viewed to be in the same position as me who spent $2000 on rent would be a fool in my eyes. So much wasted money and they would be spreading themselves so thin. The truth is that I have no idea what they’ve got going on. I have no idea what they can or cannot afford, but because of my circumstances, I make assumptions that theirs must be that way too. As a result of this, I felt that judgment cast onto me when I shared the numbers. It was an observation I made that I think is more important than I realize.  I think what was most important about it is that I realized that despite what they might think, say, or do, the facts remain the same. And that is I can comfortably afford what I am getting myself into. What anyone else says or thinks about it doesn’t change anything. So why let it bother me? 

8:58pm, March 13th, 2024, Laundry, UT I woke up yesterday with the plans of touring a potential place to live in 5 months. I will go to sleep tonight with confirmation that I am moving in 2.5 months to that exact place on June 1st. My application went through extremely quickly and I was approved and accepted. In a matter of 1 day, my life's trajectory was shifted substantially. I am very grateful man. I worked hard as shit to make this happen. We can call this Milestone 1. This is huge for me personally. I’ll have to dedicate a show to why that is soon. But for now, we keep going!

10:32pm, March 12th, 2024, Desk, UT I went and got a tour for a townhome I have been looking at to move in to this coming July. The tour went great and much better than expected. The keep it short, this place is a steal for what I need. It’s 200 feet away from a gym, 2000 feet away from a grocery store, 20 minutes closer to my job, and has many features that will be game changing (such as a garage in the state of Utah). I was anticipating and planning for a July move-in. But now, it’s June 1st. Rather than going home to think about it and try to make something happen, I committed right then and there and promised myself I would figure it out. And so I will. And it will happen.

2:27pm, March 11th, 2024, Car, Work, UT Before all of this, I was sad as shit and very discouraged. I was living a very depressing life. No wonder I felt the way I did. My escape from that all is hard work, discipline, and fortitude – daily. Burnout is impossible to attain in this scenario because that would ultimately result in going back to where I desperately fled from. I do not want that ever again. The alternative to my grind is that, so it’s an easy one to pass up on. I will not ever quit. I will remain on this path until I die. I don’t know what else to say. This is the true genuine path to real & raw happiness and fulfillment.

9:16am, March 10th, 2024, Car, Magna UT I talk a bit about the “Do what others won’t so you can do what others can’t” quote in the context of my life. Feels good. Life is easier because of it. Because I am willing to work 3 jobs, I have more opportunity, options, and overall freedom. “If you’re working so much you have less freedom!!” I don’t see it from that perspective. I see it as accelerating the “shitty” times so I can get to the glorious ones faster. I’m very proud of myself. I am stoked about everything in life.

8:14pm, March 9th, 2024, Car & Desk, UT I keep toying around with the idea that taking virtually any and all advice, compliments, criticism, insults, or praise from anyone not on the same path as you is just a losing play. I don’t know how else to clarify this other than the fact that everyone has their own desires, dreams, goals, and perspective on it all. Anything they say to you is from that perspective, not yours. Therefore its skewed by default.  The second thought was just taking quitting off the table. I feel sometimes people seek comfort or permission to quit. But if we think that through, and we were really told to quit… would we?  P.S. Not proud of this one. I don’t want to upload it. Feels half assed and unorganized.

11:07pm, March 8th, 2024, Desk, UT Big day today. Paid off a $4,000 loan in full. That frees up some monthly income to then be repurposed into other bills to get to $0. Currently on pace to be debt free by late July 2024. Which free’s up a few hundred shy of $1,000 per month. What a relief. Hard work really does pay off huh? Currently working on core values, reading some books, working on the other podcast, working on supplementation development, working on graphic design work, all while working 3 jobs, hitting the gym, and more. I feel so good when I get shit done. I even thought today “there’s no way in hell I live a life that delivers anything less than what I get now.” Meaning the fulfillment I get in myself from the daily battles I face. No way. I’m here for good. Never give up.

6:55pm, March 7th, 2024, Desk, UT Peoples reactions and perceptions of you change drastically when you’re in the process of making something happen Vs. when you actually make that something happen. I believe that this story told today is a very small scale to what actually happens with big things in the real world. You’re weird, dumb, overthinking, you name it – until it’s done and it proves to be a better way (or whatever it is you’re doing). In my case, I improved the way tape was held on our carts by saving us 12 seconds of inconvenience per tape transaction. Not a big deal whatsoever. Yet, the reactions of others were promising of the aforementioned theory in this post.  Which leads me to the final comment of this. People often critisize what they do not understand. You can’t even be bothered or offended. They just do not understand, and that’s okay.

8:02pm, March 6th, 2024, Desk, UT I don’t feel lonely. I feel alone. I am on a path that not many other people around me are on. Which sometimes sucks. I am very happy despite everything i said in this podcast, but that doesn’t erase the fact of being objecrtively alone. I am happy with my life and where it’s going because I know with 100% certainty it won’t all be for nothing. I will be able to look back and see that it was all worth it. More than worth it. Like investing $10 and turning it into $10M. Well. Well. Worth it. I have been embracing sucking and failing often lately. It’s gotten me more accustomed to ignoring and blocking out the annoying comments others make. And simply getting okay with messing up. It’s okay, it’s how you learn and grow. And I think the more I mess up and make a fool of myself, the more I am shown that it doesn’t matter, no one cares after a while, and others perceptions bother me less and less. It’s liberating. It makes me want to go try more things and mess up to further this uncomfortable comfort. Die or grow.

8:35pm, March 5th, 2024, Desk, UT - @brquse Yo. Financial Health just got better because I made the choice to work Sundays. Now I only have 2 days off a month, but my financial goals are accelerated. That makes me feel so ecstatic. I am so pumped at there mere thought of that. I’ll be able to pocket about $2,000/mo come Jan of 2025. That is a direct result of me choosing to “work so much” and sacrifice “fun times” with “friends and family.” Shit, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Why is that? I’m going against social norms fairly heavily right now. And I’m thriving? Guess I’m a weird social outcast with delusional dreams.  New apartment/condo/townhome soon. New place, new location, very hyped. Wouldn’t be here if I chose to game all day and not spend my “free time” grinding. You also wouldn’t be hearing about this if I never made the switch to commit to personal excellence.  Life is great, and I am so happy.

7:53pm, March 4th, 2024 Self doubts. I don’t know if my idea is a good idea. But I’m not going to let this self doubt sabotage everything. Who I become in the process is the reward. Even if it is a shit idea and a bad strategy. By pursuing everything, I will gain skills, knowledge, and experience. That is nothing but good. I try to keep this frame of mind with everything now. Even if the reward of my commitments explode and I get nothing, or I feel like it was for nothing, I will be a better person in the end. And that itself is the reward.

6:36pm, March 3rd, 2024, Desk, UT What an Intro. What an Outro. Good lord. Here’s the exact thing I wrote and followed to read and record:  Welcome back to the bq.Daily show where I document the day to day of personal growth, building discipline, raising the standard, building a business from the ground up, and sharing my perspective on it all as I go. I’ve committed to doing one of these every single day until episode #7305 which will be the 20-year anniversary of the show. My goal with all of this is to showcase the day to day of a man who desires more out of life who refuses to quit.  It is my hope that through documenting the journey it will inspire, help, guide, or serve as proof for anyone looking to get more out of life. If I can do it, so can you. You just have to start. That’s it for today, thanks for listening. And as a daily, reminder this podcast does not focus on sound, quality, or professionalism as much as it does just getting a message out, sharing my wins and losses, and documenting the day to day through it all.  So If you want to keep up with me, it would be awesome if you could give this show a follow on the platform you are listening on as well as a rating or review. Support this early on goes such a long way. Thanks again and I’ll see you tomorrow. So ass. But I did it, again, to prove you can just start and figure it out along the way. Now we have a reference point to compare and look back on when it gets better and more improved; whenever that may be. I think insecurities arise (in the context of doing things in front of others) because we speak to the camera, the mic, the listeners, or whatever in a way that is not congruent with how speak to others in real life. Example: I never talk to anyone In real life about self development or bettering myself via doing difficult and uncomfortable things. It makes me feel pretentious. Ergo, talking about that stuff, period, is what triggers the insecurities. It’s not that you are camera shy or are afraid to speak in front of others, it’s that you are speaking from an identity that others don’t recognize. Certain topics create the discomfort. The people listening or watching don’t have context to know that’s not normal of you to be so shy of these topics. They’re seeing or hearing you for the first time.  But your friends and family know you. And if you aren’t regularly talking about the thing you’re talking about in your content, it is “novel stimuli” to them. In other words, they’ve been so accustomed to you being one way that being any other way is foreign to them. It’s weird. They don’t understand.  And because you feel that and know it’s uncommon, the discomfort and insecurities arise.

9:01pm, March 2nd, 2024, Desk, UT I’ve gotten a bit of financial freedom (because I don’t have to pay rent at the moment lol). And that has given me that “peace of mind” financially. It’s proven to me (very clearly) that finances are great and all but they are not the goal. You can go back and listen to the last 135 episodes and hear me talk about it. I am so much more excited about creating something and sharing it with others. That freedom of creation and building something excites me so much more than any sum of money you could give me. I have reached a point where finances are not a stressor for my lifestyle. I’m sure they will be in the future with my big plans and ideas, but the point of all of this is to document. I don’t spend a lot. I don’t have expensive taste (except a lambo). I don’t need much. And that’s exciting to think I’m partly there. That frees up bandwidth both financially and mentally to allocate more energy and effort into building shit. I won’t have to stress about weekly groceries or paying my internet like in the past. I can go buy dinner for my family or go buy an xbox. I can save a month and go round trip to a new country. Thats cool to me. Now... can I buy a new car outright, down payment on a home, 5 figure flights or investments, invest 4 figures monthly, absolutely not. Trying to write this in a non-flexing way because it’s not a flex at all. It’s my piss-poor way of illustrating that I’m a simple man, and as a result of that simplistic approach, my financial goals have been met at <50k/yr. Liberation.

9:10pm, March 1st, 2024, Desk, UT Hey, would you leave me a review? I’d love some feedback and to see the numbers boost up a bit. I’ve made 134 episodes and this is my first ask of the audience here. I think it would be cool to see this reach some more people. Thank you for any consideration. I’m falling in love with the process here. It’s very rewarding. I can audibly hear myself grow (and visually too after the last episode). So cool.

7:13pm, February 29th, 2024, Desk, UT Hey hey hey, first ever podcast recorded on video in its entirety. Now that it’s over and done with, I can say now that it was so easy once I got going. The care I had as I continued on shrunk. I am now proud and happy I did it. I have actual footage of the podcast now. It’s a start. And from here I’m going to continue to find 1 itty bitty issue to improve upon each episode. And that is how this will get better and better from here on out.  A ship in a harbor is safe but that is not what ships are built for.

10:06pm, February 28th, 2024, Desk, UT We did it man. Phase 2 of Live Hard completed. This was a very monotonous grind. This was much tougher than 75 hard was and it was less than half the length. I learned a lot more about myself through this phase. One being I have the highest standards I’ve ever had. I expect so much out of myself. And now, a lot of what was so hard for me in the past is so easy now. It is so amazing to see, first hand, real growth. And it is even more amazing to see that that growth is of yourself. I love doing hard shit. It leaves me feeling full of gratitude and fulfillment. I throw that word around so much but it is as accurate as you can get. Do the program. Please. Your life will never be the same. It’s free.  Also, first edited clip. Added enhancing effects. Already don’t like the treble increase. You hear everytime I breath in now. Not a fan. But its being uploaded. IG - @brquse

4:42pm, February 27th, 2024, Drive, UT I got fired up today because it was made very clear to me that I had been executing on a particular task at a much higher standard (of this specific task) than virtually everyone else. It’s not about being better than anyone else, it’s about holding that standard high regardless of how silly, extreme, or ridiculous it seems to others that gives me that hype feeling. I also realized how quickly you can get sucked into the feeling of wanting to be on social and consume consume consume what internet strangers are feeding you. I was very aware of this feeling when it happened and I quickly took action to get out of that state. Note to self here, stop concerning yourself with comment sections if there is no positive ROI. Keep your focus on what matters now.

2:51pm, February 26th, 2024, Pre Gym, UT Such an indicator of success hearing giants in the space talk about and verbalize thoughts and ideas you’ve had all along. Alex Hormozi has quickly become one of my favorite businessmen to listen to. He speaks facts with fresh and unique perspectives. I don’t think I’ve heard him say some regurgitated bullshit before. I might start tracking these indicators along the way to see the time between each. For no other reason than to document it all for the guy or gal who listens in 23 years. Guess I’ll start now. First recorded success indicator was today, Feb 26th, 2024, on the Modern Wisdom episode with Chris Williamson & Alex Hormozi. Liquid gold. Document it all, who cares who watches or doesn’t watch. Day 29 of 30 of Phase 2 Live Hard. Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

8:25pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT I listen to my own shows more often than previously. I need to work on speaking skills. I sound like a dumbass sometimes. I do not want to sound that way. I discredit people entirely based on the way they speak. I am no perfect example whatsoever. I am just recognizing the issues and errors with my speech and want to correct them. I wouldn’t recognize these issues if I didn’t embrace the cringey learning experience by critiquing my words.  This is one of those episodes that I for sure am feeling uncomfortable posting. But it is what it is. Who cares. Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

8:16pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT If a video gets 30,000,000 views, it might have 3,000,000 likes. It may have 20,000 comments. And of those 20,000 comments, there might be 50 at the top that are all reeking of negativity. Of those 50, they might cumulatively have 12,000 likes, or people who agree with it. That is 12,000 of the 30,000,000 people who are going out of their way to support or comment that negativity. Rough math but you get the point. Yet, we like to say everyone is negative and social media is poison. 12,000 people of 30,000,000 is 0.04%. That’s nothing.  So, note to self: don’t let the 0.04% of people ruin your perspective. There’s 99.96% of others who are on your side. Butchered this show with numbers and flow. Live and learn. Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

7:46pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Absolutely exhausted. I don’t feel like I am overworking myself, but I for sure am not sleeping well. It is easy to stay on top of things, but it becomes more difficult when you slip up and put off to tomorrow what can be done today. It’s a domino effect & a snowball effect combined. I haven’t missed a day of recording, but I have missed days uploading. Just being lazy.  Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

10:13pm, February 24th, 2024, Bed, UT I recorded this while 95% asleep. I am so nervous to listen to this because I am SURE I fucked up and said a whole lot of nonsense. The name of this show is what I woke up to. I fell asleep typing the name apparently. Day 27, Pjasd/. Hell yeah.  It was a very, very difficult day at FedEx. Top 10 worst days for sure. Murphys law in full effect today. No days off in the next 10 days to look forward to… So sometimes that adds to the mental exhaustion. But it’s only accelerating my speed to achieving my goals. So anyway, day 27 in the books. Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

?:??pm, February 23rd, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT When you set a new standard for yourself; from that point forward, anything less than that standard is you choosing to be less than you could be.  If you run a mile every day and then run 6 miles one day, but continue running at one mile after that 6 mile day, you are operating with the knowledge that you are capable to run 6 miles, without dying, and not. Meaning, you’re leaving results and your potential on the table. You are indirectly lowering your standard. You set the bar, yet refuse to operate at the new bar.  Obviously this doesn’t apply to extreme instances such as a 1 rep max on bench. I’m assuming there’s some common sense here. If you write 5 pages one night but have previously only written 3, you now know you are able to write 5. If you ice bath at 50 and then go to 40, you now know you are capable of doing 40. Etc.  Unpolished thoughts.  Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 9:34pm, February 22nd, 2024, Desk, UT You never know who is watching. Hold the standard, set the example, keep pushing forward. Don’t let yourself down and don’t let those whom you inspire down either. There are silent believers and fans all over. I’m on of them. Chances you are too. When was the last time you reached out to your favorite band, author, podcaster, teacher, whoever, and told them what their work has done for you? When was the last time you sent a simple DM to one of these groups or professionals and expressed gratitude for their content? We all have silent fans and believers who watch our every move. Keep them believing. Keep them cheering for you. You’ll hear about it one day. And you’ll be thankful you never quit. I promise.

Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 7:07pm, February 21st, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT New podcast is in the works and is in the pre-pre-pre developmental stages (AKA setting goals and getting clear on my intentions). Maybe 3-4 more months until it’s live? Who knows.  I had an incredible day today and I have no logical reasoning as to why that is. I track so much of my life and nothing was out of the ordinary for today to be so good. Interesting. I even slept less than normal. Weird how the human body works.  Also, I have been putting the phone between my chest and the weighted vest. I think the voice clarity is better and it sounds better. So we’ll roll with that. Also smacked day 90 in a row of ice baths at 39º for 5 minutes. Wins on wins around here because that’s what I’ve been focusing on.

7:28pm, February 20th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Simple: It’ll be so interesting, insightful, fun, and valuable to have these podcasts in the distant future. Documenting everything has been fun so far, and I haven’t even done shit yet. Instagram - @brquse  Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.