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What up, what up, what up, y'all?Welcome to another brand new episode of Cold As Ice.Guys, we got a very special guest today.
Before we get into that, this show is brought to you by none other than the eight-time podcast producers of the year, the Dust Brothers.That's Miles Davis and Jordan Winter.Shout out to Legal Cartel for the theme song.Much love.I'm here.We're in L.A.
We're in Hollywood, all right?I'm one of your co-hosts, Ben Baller, a.k.a.The Wash Lord, right? Um, right next to me, from down south, we got my dog.
Man, y'all already know what it is, man.Jimmy the Gent, aka Jimmy Boy.The Southern's finest, the Hustler's choice, whatever you wanna call it, man.But we out in L.A.right now.We on the west side.
And by the way, um, we got a very special guest here today, and, uh, you may or may not know him, but he goes as Sushi Tattoo.I call him Moses, because the motherfucker is-is-is Moses.But God, Moses, what's up, man?How you guys doing, man?
Welcome to the show, bro.Thank you so much.Thank you so much, sir.So I'm going to be honest, bro.He definitely doesn't know shit about you.
I barely know a little bit about you, but I came across your page on the Reels Explorer page and immediately I said, this motherfucker is Korean. Didn't have to know anything else.And I said, this dude got a crazy-ass Southern accent.
Where the fuck is he from?Then a couple of your other videos, the algorithm hit, and it would pull up.And I was like, OK.Then I seen you playing a guitar.And the first thing that I saw was you had tattoos on your face, right?And I say this a lot.
I've been tattooed for over 30 years, right?When I was getting tattoos, it was a real taboo thing.
Like just having one, having a tattoo here, once you went below the sleeves, you gotta remember, and you know, for those of you who don't know, to this day in Korea, When I'm at the Park Hyatt, I'm at any five-star hotel, especially if I'm at Shilla.
Any hotel in Korea, I can't go to a public pool.
I can't enter the, you know, and some places in Tokyo, you can't even enter through the main lobby, because on some stupid-ass shit where they think you're Yakuza or whatever, think you're a gangpera or whatever, stupid.
So anyways, first thing I notice is tattoos on the face.Guys, I already told you guys. I wanted to tattoo my face in 1997.And the only reason why I didn't was because I knew I wasn't going to be able to get certain jobs and certain things.
So once I started going down here and getting tattooed here and everything else, basically I had to start wearing long sleeves around people and certain shit. At a certain point, I became a millionaire.I said, you know what?
Fuck everyone that's who I am, and I accepted it.Then people started getting tattoos.I started seeing K-pop guys getting tattoos 10 years ago.Now everyone gets tattoos, and it's been a cool thing, whatever.
But at the same time, a lot of people don't realize the stigma, the hate, the stereotypes that go behind it.So when I seen the tattoo on your face, I said, OK, this motherfucker has a story.
And believe it or not, me studying a little bit of psychology in college, me going to a lot of therapy, You may not think this, but your younger audience might be like, they are just, oh, he's just another dude on Instagram.
With me, you having that hunger blood running through you, I'm like, this dude's got some pain going through, you know what I'm saying, through his body.
He's maybe suffered, but definitely you got something, you know, you got something, you got a story, you got something, you know, to talk about.So let's start from the beginning, bro. Where were you born and raised?
I was born in Kennesaw, Georgia, about an hour away from Atlanta.And then I moved to Louisiana when I was like seven or eight. My dad was a martial artist.Taekwondo?Judo.He grew up rough.He comes from a family of seven.
Sometimes he didn't have food to eat. I guess back then in Korea, you had to pay tuition even for like elementary or middle school.And they were so poor, he couldn't even afford to go to school.
But when he was younger, he got scouted for the judo team and he ended up getting a scholarship.I guess somehow, someway he ended up enduring all of that.Back then, I guess for athletes, you didn't even have to study.So he would train all day.
since he was a child.Basically, to me, when he told me that, it felt like child abuse.He was getting knocked out by people many years over him, and no studying, all he did was train.And he ended up becoming one of the best, actually.
He ended up becoming one of the best in his weight class and whatnot. He was an alcoholic, man, and I don't think he ever went to therapy. I think he did love me, or he does love me, but the way that he showed it was fucked up.
And as a little kid, if you're getting fucking beat half to death, choked unconscious since you're like five, six, seven years old, because he put me through that training.I've been following my dad everywhere.
He used to teach classes and whatnot, and teach the police in Marietta. whether it was the Rangers or whatever, but man, he beat the shit out of me.And I didn't know what it was at the time.
And I just, I tried to run away from home so many times ever since I was a little kid and shit.
And especially after we moved, I felt like even more fucked up because at least there were some Korean people when I was in Georgia, when we moved to Louisiana near Baton Rouge, I was like the only person that looked, you know, yellow.
So there's no other Asian people.And then, you know, I guess I have mental problems too, whether I have ADD or whatever, but I wasn't really good at studying.I wasn't really like, schoolwork wasn't my thing.
So I was getting my ass beat at home, you know.Then you get your ass beat at school, right, too, like just being different.Yeah, it happened.And then I got sick of it and started fighting back.But, you know, yeah.But basically, yeah.
So I don't mean to laugh when I was laughing earlier. I spoke about this very, been very vocal about my dad whooping my ass on a daily basis.And when I talk about, my dad wasn't no judo master, but my dad was a big motherfucker.
They used to call him the Korean King Kong Bundy.You're too young to know who King Kong Bundy was, okay?You know who King Kong Bundy is?That's old school.You gotta be at least 50 years old to know this wrestler.This is way old school shit.
So my dad, I would say, was using 100% strength on a five-year-old, think about that, whooping my ass.My brother got his ass put in the hospital.
And I think out of so many years, as crazy as it sounds, the reason why I laughed is you said, I think my dad loved me, right?Look, in a sick fucking way, I spoke to a lot of Korean people my age. And we all experienced similar things.
The only problem was most of them didn't have a martial artist as a father.So he actually knew what he was doing.He knew how to really get you good.I didn't know why I was doing these calculated ass whoopings on me.Like, what the fuck?
And it's like the rage.And sometimes my sister or my brother would defend my dad and say, do you know what they went through?And look, I know my dad had a hard life.Think about walking from one side of Korea to another during the war.
So what, fuck you.So I didn't speak to my dad for almost 12 years.Now, my dad passed three months ago, and right before he passed, I was like, I'll make peace to a certain extent.I've accepted the fact that he's an old ass man.
Your dad's still alive, right?Yeah.Yeah.So I don't know what your relationship is with your dad, but we'll get into that.But tell me how that, like, so what happened from, so you went to Louisiana.
And then, well, I became a drug addict at a pretty early age, too.I used to work out and do all this shit. I think that's what made it easier for me to start doing drugs because I felt like I didn't have anywhere to turn to.
So, you know, they tell you you're supposed to be able to tell your parents and everything or whatever, right?I couldn't tell them shit because, you know, so I can't really trust my parents.I don't really know about that.
And then I'm outside and, you know, I'm fucking Jackie Chan or Bruce Lee or whatever.So it's like and in between that, I felt like, you know,
I felt like I was nothing or trash or whatever because I wasn't studying, I wasn't doing good at this and that.
And I guess it was easy to feel accepted and slip in with people like that because most drug addicts and people who do shit like that, they don't have shit to live for.
And even though on the outside it might look like you got both your parents and this and that, It doesn't mean shit if you don't feel any love or support.Yeah, for sure.It might as well not even be there, because you're fucking dying inside.
So how do you fucking handle that kind of... What kind of drugs are we talking about, bro?Anything that would make me feel better.
Ecstasy, opiates, you know, weed, cigarettes.See, opiates is like something you kind of at least maybe, I think you would have to, maybe kids now, but like back when I was younger,
I felt like pills weren't something until, like, college or late high school.I felt like pills were the most convenient thing, because I'd just go to school and pop them shits.That's the thing, yeah.
Like, with the generation with him, it's like, it was more convenient than with pills and stuff like that.
By the way, tell the people, how old are you?I am 31.OK, 31.OK, yeah, so that's, I guess that makes sense.So weed wasn't a thing that you were smoking?You didn't smoke weed?No, I was smoking it.I was smoking, I was popping, I was doing everything.
Okay.You know, we can only do so much.Yeah.
And I always tell people like, I wish I wouldn't have abused drugs like that when I was 15, 16.Because I'm like 6'2 now.If I didn't fucking do all that ecstasy and shit, I would be fucking 6'5 or 6 at least.I wasn't sleeping.
I'm talking about up three days and shit.Yeah.You know.You have siblings?You got siblings?Yes, sir.I have a brother and he's gay.And that motherfucker been through hell too.Because think about it. He's seven years younger than me.
That motherfucker was an accident.That's what my dad said.So damn, bro.Seven years is a big difference, man.
Yeah, and I used to be fucking pissed off at him, because I would get my ass beat so much by my dad and mom that they wouldn't have energy to beat his ass afterwards, you know?
And you said your dad had you when he was how old?So he was 47 when he had your brother.
Yeah, and then I figured out that was that motherfucker's third marriage after high school.
I was like, what?God damn.
Sometimes I would see mail and shit.This motherfucker has three names.I was like, why are Anthony, Tony, and Nakjoon Kim?I was like, why did you change your name so many times?He would just like laugh it off or whatever.
And I found out that he got married three times.What about your mom?Did she know about that?I think, I don't know.My dad is slick.I think between us, like, I think he's still fucking putting his dick somewhere.He's still smashing at 70?
I mean, they do got hymns out there, you know what I'm saying?So you still got blue chew, you know, you got that real honey.You can't stop, man.
You know, I'm Vietnamese, so I really don't know about, like, Korean.But I feel like just even Asians, like, and, like, I used to get beat like a redheaded stepchild.You know, my dad used to beat me for no reason.Like, that's all he knew.
And, you know, I remember growing up, I used to question a lot.And I used to hate, and I left home when I was 14 years old. Because it was just like, I didn't feel like that family was there.So I went to the streets to look for family.
I realized now it's like, cause you know, it's like, and not even how they were raised or anything, but as Asians, first generation, like coming from over there,
they're just taught that you gotta beat it in the person to change them, you know what I mean?Like they really, you know what I mean?
They think they'll beat the gay out of you or beat the bad grays out of you.
Yeah, or it's like if I keep telling them I gotta beat them and he'll get it together, you know what I mean?Which is crazy, because, bro, you know, I got five kids now and I've never laid a hand on none of my kids.
That's what I'm saying.If you got treated like that, why the fuck would you do that to your own child and think that's gonna work?
I spanked my kids before, but the spanking to them is like, hey, It's a joke, bro.I'm talking about motherfuckers.You know what a mongolian is, right?You know what I'm saying?Like, I'm talking about, like, I don't know.We can't.Yeah.
Let me ask you something about your brother. Is the relationship with you and your brother good, or y'all don't really talk very much?
No, no, I try.You know, I try to talk to him and whatever.But yeah, I mean, him being gay, like, I remember my parents used to just be like, can't you just, like, not do that?Like, can't you just, like, it's like, what the fuck?
Can't you just, like, try some pussy?And on top of that, guys, try some pussy.
Like, hey, you can just wake up and say, fuck it, right?
I'm done, though.Guys, just so you know, too, even to this day, in 2024 in Korea, We are one of the very few Asian countries that does not, just does not support LGBTQ at all whatsoever.
And South Korea is racist as fuck, homophobic as fuck.And they might not have racism in that country because everybody's yellow, but they fucking look at money and their classes.They're like, you're poor, how much money you got?Them people.
But even if you got money, bro, you don't think, dog, You know, I go out there and they still on some funny shit, and I just tell them, fuck you.I lived in Korea seven years ago.
Yeah, let's talk about that.
So you moved to Korea when you were 18, you said, right?Yeah.OK, why did you move to Korea?Because I was a fuck up.
I had a bad drug addiction.I went to the University of New Orleans for one semester, and I was just...
I was selling drugs, getting high all day, you know, fucking a bitch that was seven years older than me, because, you know, she was doing my laundry and shit.I remember my roommates used to make fun of me.
They're like, why are you fucking with that bitch?She your fucking mother.But I remember, and I think that's what I like, I don't know.I just wanted someone to take care of me.And I thought that was love and shit.That was love.
Because that's what you felt like you missing, you know what I mean?I never got that.
I never got that, you know.
And you feel like it doesn't come with it.
It feels good, man.Yeah.You know, it's funny.There was a thing when I was growing up.
And they're like, yo, if you fuck up in America and, you know, you ain't out here doing your thing, go to Korea because, you know, Koreans, they bite so much American swag, right?They try to whatever.
And I remember before JYP was a thing and way before K-pop shit was a thing.And like, one of my boys I grew up with, one of my dongsangs, He's considered to this day one of the greatest rappers in Korean history.And they call him the Eminem of Korea.
His name is JK Drunken Tiger.I know.Yeah, he's dope.So JK is my boy.And I've known JK since he was fucking 13 years old.OK.And when I first seen this kid, I'm like, you got to be fucking kidding me.He actually turned into something.
His wife, you know, there was a lot of controversy because she was mixed with black and she was in a group called Uptown. I was fucking Uptown's fucking DJ when they came to America.So it was kind of crazy, right?Like this story of how my story is.
His producer and his co-rapper is now one of the most famous fucking clothing brand owners in the world, designers, Mike Amiri.
And I had no idea that I've known Mike from way back in the day, but he just didn't, not only he was embarrassed, he just, not many people would think that he was a Korean rapper, a Korean producer, this and that, because he's fucking, you know, Persian.
Anyways, going back, you went to Korea, so you were fucking up.What'd you do out there, and how the fuck did you just decide to move to Korea at 18?How'd you pay rent?
I auditioned for an acting school, because my dad was pretty much telling me, You're not good at anything else.There's no way that you're going to fucking study.All you got is your dick and your height.You look kind of okay.
Why don't you try that out?Try something else.It's called the Seoul Institute of the Arts.It's got a name in Korea.No, I know it.Oh, okay.I went there. Man, I caught chlamydia so many times when I was... Oh, man.
No, you don't understand, because... In Korea, bro?No, no, no.This is how stupid I was, like... I didn't know about any of that.I grew up in Louisiana.I wasn't getting any pussy.You know, none of them white girls or black girls want to fuck with me.
You know what I'm saying?So I go to Korea and all of a sudden I'm a hot commodity because like I'm from overseas.So they think I got money.I speak English, which is also like cool to them.And so like, you know, I didn't know what to do with it.
Like, I just went crazy.I'm fucking like all these girls at a time.And, you know, I fuck.
Yeah.Also mix in fucking vaginal juices and this and that and whatever.Yeah.Eventually some shit's going to happen.
No, I was so stupid.I thought since we were both Asian, you know, there was nothing, nothing could happen.And I just fucking pissed one time.
I wish I was around when you was fucking 18.
No, bro, I fucking thought that because we were both Korean, like, it couldn't happen.That's how fucking dumb I was.
Yeah. Okay, so you go out there you try to get some you try to audition first, you know for acting and stuff Did you ever land anything or fuck?
No, man, I was fucking up over there too.
I was just pissed off being there I was like why the fuck like I'm illiterate and shit These motherfuckers think I'm mentally like retarded like short but shit cuz like I look Korean just like how you said Oh, I can tell this motherfucker is Korean.
So they know I'm Korean, but I'm over here talking.Annyeonghaseyo How good is your hangul? It's fucking bullshit.I mean, it's not that good.I got better, but it's like, people think I'm retarded and shit.But you were there for seven years.
It's gotta be conversational right now, isn't it?Yeah, it's, you know.I had to learn to get some pussy.That's what motivated me.That's some good motivation, though.
You know what I'm saying?
I had to learn Korean to get some pussy.
I ain't gonna lie, that's some real motivation.
Money and pussy.Okay, so, question.Tell these people how serious How fucking, so hold on, 18, so 13 years ago?Tell these people how serious, 13 years ago, if you get caught with an eighth of weed in Korea, let these people know.
I was fucking, a gram of weed is $150.And I was fucking around with people like that over there.No, but let them know what kind of jail time they're looking at, bro.They can't.Well, if you're a foreigner, you can't come back into the country.
Yeah, you're done.One of my friends who was in the same school with me,
man, the fucking Korean FBI or whatever they were busted down his fucking door and he got evicted back back to Australia, you know, I had another fucking, you know, they'll just kick you out.
And like you said, your life is over if they catch you with with any kind of fucking drugs over there. And that's how fucking stupid I was, that I was over there risking that, still smoking, hanging out with those people, even in that country.
So if you don't know this, when you're in Korea, if you're famous, you're not famous or anything, if they suspect you're doing drugs, you ain't taking no piss tests.Korean people are too smart.
They'll pull a hair out of your fucking head, and that shit gets everything for like years.Not even just fucking like three months, you can't beat no hair test.
And in Korea, everybody uses KakaoTalk and the government can just look at all your messages and all, you're fucked.Back then, there wasn't no telegram or anything, they were using KakaoTalk to celebrate, you're fucked.
And they're compliant, so they just, it's like a Korean WhatsApp, except there ain't no encryption.Oh, shit.And my boy Seungri got busted for the fucking, I ain't gonna get into that.So I'll tell you a funny story.
Snoop's going to Korea for the first time in 2013.He hits me up, he's like, hey, his manager's Korean, by the way. And he goes, hey, we need to get him some weed.I was like, hey, bro, ain't gonna happen.And he goes, you gonna make it happen.
And I was like, I can make it happen, but I'm just gonna tell you right now.So I hit every single person I knew.I got him the best possible weed you could get in Korea.And I ain't gonna lie to you, it wasn't bad.It was good shit, right?He went crazy.
He called me up.He's like, bro, you the motherfucking man.We had to get him the only hotel in Gangnam. You know, that had a balcony so he could smoke and everything.And I was like, bro, by the way, I got him a quarter pound, right?
He smokes an ounce a day.In Korea?Yeah.So he ran out.Now I'm telling you, I said, look, dog, you gonna go to jail?You gonna get arrested?You gonna get banned from the country?He's already been banned from like 15 countries, by the way.This is Snoop.
Snoop Dogg.So he goes on his Twitter and he goes, hey, fuck this.I'm doing features right now on albums for weed. Bro, he's a quarter million minimum for a 16-bar feature.He's ready to do a feature and clear the feature to get some weed.
That's how bad it was.Motherfuckers were coming out of the woodworks.Motherfuckers was coming from Jejua, coming from fucking, from... That's where they grow that shit, bro.From Pusan, everywhere.Like, yo, we got some shit.
It wasn't great, but he was able to get some more weed, whatever.But I'm just saying, like, he didn't get how bad it was.And the first time I brought Justin Bieber to Korea was about 10 years ago. I brought the weed into Korea.
That was the dumbest shit I ever did.Like, in your asshole?No, I brought it in my bag.We weren't really tripping back then, right?And then there's been a couple times where I was bringing weed, and I almost got busted one time.
And I literally threw up and vomited and had diarrhea at the same time in Incheon Airport thinking, I go to Korea every year.Nervous, right?I was sick, bro.Bro, you're crazy.I don't know how to fucking smoke.Never, ever will I ever do that again.
Bro, I don't give a fuck if it's the president telling me to give him some— I'm not fucking taking that to Korea, bro.
They'll fuck you up for that shit.And by the way, have you seen a jail cell in Korea yet or no? No.OK, so a jail cell in Korea is about five feet tall.So you can't even stand up in your own cell, bro.
And it's just a whole different level of fucked up over there.And everything, obviously, in Korea, if you're in jail, bro, you're in jail for.And you have to be in a gang.And if you're not part of a gang, then you fucked.You know what I'm saying?
Because it's really on some real, they're real, for real, OG gung-pa shit that runs through there.They run that system for real, for real.Going on, why'd you stay for seven years?
After I graduated, like I said, I didn't really have a good relationship with my family.So I just figured I'd just stay and try to, I mean, all I had, I didn't know I was gonna be a fucking porn star and fucking, you know, do whatever.I didn't know.
So I felt like there was nothing for me in the States except fucking drugs and violence.Like, what am I gonna go back to Louisiana?
Before I started doing social media full-time for a living, the only states that I had been to was fucking Georgia and Louisiana.So I don't know nothing.
I know, but in Korea, how were you earning your living?I mean, how'd you pay rent?What did you do for work?
Well, before I started being an English teacher, my parents used to send me like $600 a month.But for me, I was kind of fucking pissed off about that because I felt like I felt like they just left me to die over there.
Because it's like, I was too much of a problem.I wasn't listening.I had all these, you know.I mean, what the fuck were you eating?I mean, no, were you eating chuka every day or something?
I hung out with women, older women, and they took care of me.And yeah, I wasn't... That's the thing.I always like older women because they just, I guess they just... Nurturing.Yeah.I'm not mad at that, bro.Yeah, I was broke every month, man.
And then I started teaching English.What made you want to come back to America then?Actually, fuck that.Let me rewind this.When did you get your first face tattoo?When did you get your first face tattoo?
After, so I came back when I was like 25 and my parents had like a little, my dad was sick and they told me to come back.You know, he's dying or whatever.Why don't you help out family business shit?And my parents, they're definitely not rich.
They work their ass off.They work at a donut shop. And it's seven days a week, no holidays off, none of that.And they just did the same thing for years.And my mom was like, your dad's dying.He can't even walk and shit.
And just come back and try to help out or whatever.And I came back and, well, those motherfuckers lied, first of all, because my dad's still alive. Well, it's hard to work with family.I wanted to help them the best I could.
I guess I wanted to kind of atone for my past sins, too.Right.But, fuck, nothing had really changed.Louisiana is Louisiana, and my parents were still my fucking parents.So I'm over here dealing with shit, and I ended up falling back into drugs.
I started getting packs sent in the mail using Bitcoin and shit, so then my place got raided, and then I got arrested.Allegedly, I was never selling drugs.I'm innocent, whatever.I never did that.
But if I did, whatever I had, I had to use for my bond and bail money and lawyer money. And then I had to go through drug counseling and probation for two years.And then after that,
That's when I just tattooed my face pretty much as motivation, just because I knew I was gonna be a little fucking bitch.
If I knew that I could go back to Korea and teach English again, if I knew that I could fuck around and work in my parents' shop again, I knew that I wouldn't ever be able to be anything other than that.And I fucking hated myself.
I hated myself so much because I felt like You know, I was just a fuck up.My parents don't really, I never felt like my parents really cared.I never felt like anybody really cared.
So at that point, it's like, I'll just fucking try to make this work or I'll fucking die.Like, that's really why.So what was the first tattoo?Which one?Oh, I had, no, I mean on the face, I'm saying.I got my neck first.Okay.
And then basically I just told myself I was just gonna fucking like make this shit work somehow, whether it was porn or social media or whatever.But I never wanted to like,
I just didn't want to go back to that kind of violence, because my parents, like, I'm saying, like, my dad's an alcoholic, you know.
But at this point, bro, when you go back, Doug, you're a grown-ass man.You can whoop your dad's ass.He's your sister.
So basically, the tattoos on your face is like your step of faith.
Pretty much, it's like, no more going back.It's like, it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks.It's like, I'm going to do this.I'm going to make it happen.
Because that's the same thing for me.Like, when I got my hands tattooed, my first hand tattoo was this one right here.I got it when I was 20.And I got it because I was just like, I know that once I get my hand tattooed, I can never get a regular job.
I can never do nothing. So if I do this, it means I got to fucking do whatever the fuck I got to do to make it.You know what I mean?And that was basically my step of faith, man.So I see what you're saying.
It was just like, I'm going to just do this because I'm going to look at myself every day and I'm going to have to know.
You was one of the first people on Nike Talk when they posted a picture of you.It was like 2005, 2006.And you had hand tattoos.I said, OK, you bitch. Because I was mad because I couldn't get none, you know what I mean?
Because I couldn't fuck with what I was doing for a living.When I seen the hand tattoos, that made me pissed.And at that point, I already had an M in my account.So I was like, Doug, I need 20 N's before I get a hand tattoo.So I was jealous.
And I was like, this motherfucker really got his hands tattooed.But no, it makes sense, because you can't go get a regular job at that point.
Yeah, that's exactly why, too.No, that makes sense.
So that's your motivation to do that. When did you decide to jump into porn, adult industry?Like, what intrigued you?Like, what was the first step, actually, bro?Well, I like big booty bitches, and I like to beat my meat.
You from the South, baby.You know what I mean?You from the South.
I've been beating my fucking dick.Shout out to all my homies in Baton Rouge, though.
Y'all know, man.Sometimes I beat my dick 7, 10 times a day.I might as well get paid for it and shit.Well, let me ask you a question, bro.Are you using Viagra, or you just got that kind of testosterone inside of you?
I'm just a freaking motherfucking dollar.
He got angry he got let out.
7 to 10.Bro, listen. My sex life right now is probably the best it's ever been.And I used to be a prostitute.I was an absolute whore.I talked about this before.
But I will say, right now, my shit is crazy because I got testosterone intakes and all this shit.Never in my entire fucking life, I think two or three times where there have been jagged off or having sex would have been the most.7 to 10, bro.
I'm crazy, dog.Yeah, you're a fucking Tasmanian.
That's why I'm doing porn, though, dude.That's what I'm saying.I got all these nuts to give and shit.OK, so how were you?
Make a shirt like that.Got nuts to give.What was the first start?
I don't give a nut.Like, I don't give a fuck, but I'll give a nut. How did you decide to just say, fuck, did you create an OnlyFans?Did you go on Twitter?What happened, dawg?Break it down for the people so they understand.
Yeah, how did it start?Did you just jump into it?
Like I said, I didn't really have that much confidence when I was younger.I thought I was ugly or weird or something.
just like this i was just posting shit and people were like you know damn like you're kind of funny or damn like you kind of look all right and they're like you should make only fans i'll pay for that shit i said you would i said you would pay for me to bust a nut on camera and that's just how it started i said all right i'll whip my dick out then like i don't give a fuck like i got nothing to lose anymore i got all these tattoos family members think i'm fucking crazy fucking
And even when I was teaching English, just like, I'm not the fucking boss.To be honest with you, I guess I was lying to myself for the majority of my life.
I was scared to take the risk and go out there, but I don't have the fucking personality to fucking work for nobody or at a fucking office.It's like, I got a bad attitude.Like, I don't really, I don't want you to, you know what I'm saying?
I just wanted to do my own thing.
Have you ever thought about doing stand-up comedy, bro?
Sure, yeah.You a funny motherfucker, bro.If you just wrote some shit and talk about your life experiences, I think that should be, okay. When I first found the Lyrical Egg Roll page, it was at about 183 or 200,000 followers.
So you've amassed over 550,000 followers.And then I found the other page, which I didn't know you had another page, right?And I went there, I was like, OK, this dude's saying some funny ass shit, right?
You're talking about your height, you're talking about, by the way, you're a tall dude.And for the record, I'm gay, so I don't care.You a handsome motherfucking dude, bro.So don't let anybody tell you you not.
Feel like without the tattoos or anything, right, you could have did something, but cool.This is what the life you chose.This is the path you went, right?This is what you wanted to do.
So when you started getting an OnlyFans page, are you actually running it?Because 90% of people who have OnlyFan pages have like a management running it, you know what I'm saying?No, everything is me.So it's really you.
But I love that.At first, you know, it was, You know, human beings all want validation in some way or form.And, you know, at first, like, I was getting an adrenaline rush, a high off of that shit, because, you know, it was new to me.
And then it became, like, a little bit deeper because, like, I just haven't really seen, like, any Asian people slanging dick or just being real.It's always like, oh, well, you know, my mom.I can't let my mom see.It's like, fuck you, doll.
Have you ever seen an Asian male porn star ever?I've never seen one.And even if they do, they're, like, all quiet about it.It's like, shh.No, I ain't talking about, like, Japanese shit.I'm talking about, like, you know, like, actual in America.
Do you know one Asian male porn star?I don't know one.
I mean, they're out there, but they're, like, bitches. Like, I don't want to meet it like that, but they're, like, all, like, quiet about it.They don't promote themselves.
They don't, like, they're just, like... Have you smashed a girl on camera yet or no?
Oh, you have?Yeah.Are you sitting there, like, bitch, I'll kill you, bitch?
Or are you just on some, like... I don't know.Every girl has, like, their different, like, rules and what they're into and whatever, but, yeah.
So, basically, your following that you accumulated, that's from the OnlyFans or...?
I don't know.I make... I sing... I try to be, you know, say some kind words when I can and I don't know.I just wanted to show that it was possible because if I felt like I was like strange or not accepted.
I'm sure that there's other Asian people who felt the same way, who didn't want to do exactly what their mom and dad wanted them to do, but they're like scared to put themselves out there.
And I just thought that maybe it would be nice or cool to have somebody, you know, say what they really want and do that shit. I mean, do your parents know what you do right now?
Yeah.Oh, they do?I don't give a fuck either way.Good for you, bro.I mean, it's cool.Have they expressed any sort of thoughts or feelings about it or they feel some type of way?
They just can't believe I get paid like that or they think I'm going to get arrested or something because I'm showing dick and stuff.They're like, is that even legal?This seems wrong.
Yeah.Well, good, bro.You do what you want, right?So let me ask you this, man.Do you have any goals?Like, is there anything you want to do before?Like, I mean, bro, you're still young.Is there anything you want to do you feel like you haven't done?
Like, what do you see?Where do you see yourself five, ten years from now?
I don't care about the money or anything like that.I just, like I said, I just wanted to show that it's possible to be yourself and you don't always have to
do what your parents want you to do or what your friends want you to do, that it's okay to be different, that it's okay to follow your dreams, and even if it's hard growing up and stuff, to let it go and don't let that bring you down and do what you want.
Whether you're Asian or white or black, don't let it bring you down.
Look dawg, you're an interesting, fascinating motherfucker to me.We haven't even scratched the surface, I'm sure.But what other interests do you have besides music, besides slinging your dick, whatever it may be?Do you have any vices?
What do you like to do for fun, besides fuck big booty bitches? drugs, is it something that's a problem?You feel like it interrupts your daily life?
I've definitely had issues, yeah, to be honest.
I mean, today though, is it recreational?Is it something that you think is an issue?Elaborate.
I mean, I try to keep it under control, but I feel like I do have a problem with addiction sometimes, especially whenever I'm feeling a little depressed or down, like it's easy for me to like, because I have a hard time expressing myself to people.
Like, I guess it's okay.Cause like, you know, I'm not going to say it's superficial, but it's like, I guess I don't want to bother anybody that's really close to me with my bullshit or like, I feel like
It would just weigh them down too, because I got a lot of problems and I don't want to bring that up to them.Or maybe I don't want to seem weak.I don't want to seem like I don't got it all together.But that's okay, bro.Yeah.
Hey, bro, look, I'm 51.I don't got it all together.But you know what?I don't think my life began until I was 40. And I figured it out, and you know, you're the same way.
Look, I don't like to ask anybody for silly shit like, hey, I don't expect anybody to open the door for me because you know what?
As soon as I open a door for somebody, and I'm not talking about someone opening a door, I'm talking about literally at a fucking airport or a restaurant, someone opens the door, and they recognize me, immediately, now I owe them a chain.
Do you know what I'm saying?Like, shit like that.So I just wanna be independent.I don't like relying on anybody else.I'm really independent, and I feel a lot of your pain.Yeah, that's what it is.It's just easy for me to get high.
But I'll be honest with you, just from one DM, I could tell you wanted to say something to me.And don't tell me I'm crazy because I felt, because we're here now talking about it.And I felt like, look, my man wants to talk about something.
And really, look, I'm not a therapist, but I've been through a lot and I still got a lot going on right now.But if there's something here and there we could talk about, bro, and I can help you out, please.
But have you ever thought about seeing like a professional?I have, you know, I have.What's stopping you?
Yeah, it's just, I don't want to be, you know, I feel like I need to handle it by myself.I just don't want to be weak.And so like- It ain't being weak, bro.Even those videos or whatever you're talking about, you know.
No, it ain't being weak.Listen, bro, look, look, this show is actually, and I'm not saying this as to plug a sponsor, but this show is sponsored by BetterHelp, which is an online therapy thing.And it's like, look, I've used it. And you know what?
Some people say, oh man, it's so great to get your feelings out.It's not that.There is a science to it.And Moses, I'm being real with you, bro.I don't ever want to look weak.And I'm a father of three kids.Most importantly, I'm a father to two boys.
I don't want them kids to feel like they can't look their dad to go whoop someone's ass or have the, I don't have the answers to everything, right?But I have lived a lot of life and I am very content about where I'm at.
I feel like, bro, you haven't even fucking gone out there, right?You've been in two states, three states now.You've been to Korea.Bro, there's a whole world out there for you to explore, you know?And if this platform or I could help you somehow,
Shit, man, fulfill some dreams, bro.I'd love that to be a goddamn passion project.You know, I don't want to volunteer Jimmy, but I'm just saying as you're young, you know, I mean, bro, like don't look at it as a weakness.Nobody is perfect, bro.
Nobody knows when it's our last day here.So. They always say, bro, you're not here for a long time.You're here for a good time, right?As you get older, life's supposed to be easier.Shouldn't make it harder on yourself, bro.
And I feel like in a certain way, and don't take this as a negative thing, I feel like you are still walking a little bit of an incline, a little bit of an uphill battle when there could be things that can help you out.Now, I understand.
Have you ever seen the movie Good Will Hunting before?Yeah.OK. Think about that, right?He couldn't go to a traditional therapist, because he was getting in trouble.His ass was beat.He was one of, you know, whatever.He was a foster kid.He was beaten.
He was burned.Robin Williams is a teacher.But he's a brilliant kid.He understood something.And it's kind of like, you know, he's from Southie.They're from the same hood.Now, I know you're not from K-Town.
But I'm saying, like, maybe someone from, I don't know, because there's not many fucking Asian people in Louisiana.But I get where you're coming from.And I just think that it's not necessarily a mentor.Don't look at it like that.
I really do think you need to, not necessarily unload all your problems, but one by one, if you can knock some of these things off your checklist, I think you'd be able to sleep better, and I think that you'd be able to... I'm gonna tell you like this, bro, like, you know, I was born and raised in Houston, Texas, you know what I mean?
We neighbors.Growing up for me, it was very confusing because I wasn't like the rest of the other kids.You know, I grew up, I was a teenager in the 90s, you know what I mean? I was judged a lot, even from my voice, because they said it was too deep.
You know what I mean?And therapy for me, let's not even talk about therapy yet.I'll just tell you, growing up, it was very confusing.It was hard.I lived in a big house with my whole family.
I'm talking about my dad, his sister, his brother, their partners, and their kids.You know what I mean?But there was no love.I didn't feel it.I was getting my ass beat.My dad was the type of person where he's like, yo, the floor is white.
And I'd be like, no, it's wood. Oh, you talking back?And whoop my ass.And my cousins would be like, yo, just shut up and tell him.And I'm like, but I'm not talking back.I'm just trying to let you know it's wood.It's not white.Beat my ass again.
You know what I mean?So I left home very early because I went searching, realizing it now.Back then, I didn't.But now I realize I was out there searching for that family.And I went in the streets thinking I would find that. I didn't find it.
And then when I had my kids, it was like, that's when I realized like, damn, you know what I mean?Like, this is what I've been searching for.
And I say that because I got to a point for a while, I always thought therapy was like, they're going to try to change you or you're going to feel weak because you got to talk to somebody.
And I got to a point two years ago, a little bit over two years ago, it was like, yo, I'm at a good place in my life, I'm doing everything.But I started noticing like the way I act and my attitude was rubbing off on my daughter because she's 18 now.
So, she was a teenager then.At that moment I was like, you know what?I need to fix myself so I could be a better role model for her.And so, I started going to therapy and like I told you at first it was just like, can't nobody change me.
Like, I ain't trying to change.But that's the thing with therapy is that I realize now it's not about changing yourself.It's about really just understanding yourself better.
You know, like a lot of things that you went through, you know, none of us want to go through that, you know, and we all been through our own things, but. being able to talk to somebody about it.
I feel like when I go to therapy now, it's like, I'm not even talking to them for them to change me or nothing.
It's me just sitting through those, you know, traumas or those memories again and thinking like how I could have handled it differently or how I can avoid it now and make myself better.You know what I mean?So it's like, I get how you feel.
You know what I mean?I ain't gonna lie to you.When I was your age, like, I had a time 2013, 14.So I was about 31, 32.I went through a really bad time.I was living out here and, you know, I just felt like it was me against the world.
You know what I mean?And, um, I attacked it the way I knew how and the way I knew how to grind.And, and, and, you know, I just went at it, but it was just like, it just made me more difficult as a person.
And, you know, it's like a lot of things that we go through, we can't change it, bro.But we can understand it.And we can make sure that we don't put that upon, not even, you know, you ain't got kids yet, right?
But upon just people, you know what I mean?Because it's like... Shit, he might have some kids.
Sometimes, yeah.Just one fucking seven times a day.
Sometimes I think about, like, even girls that I met that were good women that I hurt, you know what I mean?Just because of my trauma and how I feel, you know what I mean?So it's just like... Definitely, man.
Look, nobody's trying to... I'm not a forceful person.
Yeah, we're not here to preach, bro.
Ain't nobody here to tell you to go to wherever.We're just saying, look, there is help out there. And as much as you think, like, look, I'm the one in a billion.I don't know anybody that's had a story like me, let alone a Korean American.
I'm not trying to hear it, bro.I can't, it's not gonna happen.That doesn't mean other people with different skin colors didn't go through the things I went through.
Someone went through something, and I'm saying, look, we're just saying there's help out there, there's options.So to switch gears real quick, bro, when you wake up in the morning, what's your motivation?
Well, you know, you guys talk about therapy, but in a way, creating those songs or those videos, it is my therapy.
Yeah, it is my therapy because I get to express those feelings and I get to see what people are saying back, you know?
Well, that's just my thing.I know the world's fucked up and nobody's perfect, but I really do like to make people laugh, you know?
So the question is, so you said you met, when you first seen him, he was at like 100 or 200,000, right?So was there something, a video, was it a comedy or was it the OnlyFans, the porn?What was it that really took off?
Yeah, what took you off back to 550 in the last year or two?
I've been the same way, like nothing changed.
There wasn't like maybe a video, like a comedy video, or was it like a porn one that took off?
Well, it varies.Sometimes I talk about, like, you know, my problems with my family, and sometimes that does well, or sometimes I talk about, you know, you know, suicidal stuff, just don't give up.
Is there a certain video that has like the most, like, views or like that went the biggest that you were talking about?Like, what was that one? Because I would be interested just to see it, you know what I mean?Just to really understand it and know.
I mean, you obviously saw progression, you know what I'm saying?Your follower growth.
Well, that's kind of how I started to figure out what I was, like, kind of good at.Because, like, I started to, like, understand, like, you know, words are very powerful.And like you said, everybody goes through things.
But I guess it's hard to say it out loud and admit it. you know, but I felt relief in finally like saying like, you know, I was, I was a fuck up.I didn't have a good relationship with my family.
And just to see that I was still accepted and people, you know, have been, other people have been through the same thing.It made me feel less alone.
So a lot of your following really be on top of like your videos about expressing yourself.
And really it gives a lot of, okay.
Let me ask you a question about the OnlyFans.So with the OnlyFans, when it comes to that, Did you feel like today, do you feel like this is something you hate doing, but it does make you some bread?
Or do you actually enjoy doing doing adult work, quantum work, whatever?
Oh, well, you know, at first it was fun.And like I said, I got like a little ego boost or whatever.But, you know, now it's just it's just work and.
I feel like I feel happiness over like different things now, not over like, oh, this bitch wants to fuck me or I can have sex with her.
It's more like, like y'all said, it's about myself and what I've been through and kind of fixing myself and becoming a better person.That kind of stuff makes me more happy than that stuff.
It doesn't matter.Do you ever get, I mean, do you get excited though?If it's like, have you ever been excited?Because I mean, you must, come on, bro.Okay, let's try to bring some comedy into this.
Has there ever been an ugly like fat bitch that you had to have sex with you like damn?I fuck this bitch, but you know what I gotta do this shit.No.
I fuck no So like the only fan videos are they like like basically like fucking videos or is it videos?
I mean beating my dick in front of a camera like I only fuck with like girls who have a certain amount of following or experience I would never fucking do that not because she's fat or whatever but just because like Right right right right
I don't, it's the same thing, you don't want to fuck with jewelers who are like, you know, not that they're low level or anything, but you want to fuck with somebody who's around, that's what I mean, like, yeah.
But I will once in a while be like, look, there's a lot of potential here, this could be something big, boom, and you know.
Other than, no, I'm not that desperate.
And I know you said, like, money don't mean anything to you, but like, how much have you made off OnlyFans?
Um, I've made it enough to be comfortable.Yeah.I'm not rich by any means.It's just enough to get by.
And you make OnlyFans, like, once a week?Or how often do you do the OnlyFans?
It depends.At this point, I've gotten kind of lazy.But I used to post, like, you know, every couple of days or so.
Let me ask you a question.Like, has there ever been, like, What is it?You gotta be 18, right, for a girl to be on OnlyFans?You gotta be 18, right?I'm assuming, right?Or 21?Is it 21 or 18?I have no idea.Probably 18, I think.Okay, so like...
If a bad 18-year-old chick was like, fuck, look, let's do some content, she's cool.
I mean, I don't know.I don't want to fuck with no young people like that, because I'm 31, too.It's like, unless it's like... I respect that, bro.
Now, let me ask you a question.If it was a bad MILF who's 50 years old, would you do it, or is that too old?
They just say it like all the women, bro. I mean, I'm a whore, but at the same time, I got, like, it's funny to say this, but I got standards.
Bro, I ain't gonna lie, though.I done seen some fine 50-year-olds, bro.What are you talking about?I seen a bunch of them.
Exactly, so.OK, so now for some, I don't know if they awkward, but it is what it is.I don't know how it works, because I've never been on OnlyFans, but does it show you how many subscribers you have, how many followers you have?
Does it show that, or does it not show that?Do you know how many followers you have on OnlyFans?I don't know how it works.Yeah. So when you see it, do you know how many men and how many women or does it not say that?
I think I get a lot of gay dudes and I'm okay with that.
I love and respect everybody but I like pussy and I always tell them that.So you have no problem with these dudes paying to see you? It's just whatever.
Because you don't see them, right?You just make the video and they watch it, right?
And then with me, I feel like I'm a little bit different from other OnlyFans people because I really just do whatever the fuck I want.If they don't like it, they can fuck off.I don't give a fuck.I'll post when I want, I'll do what I want.
What's the craziest message you ever got on OnlyFans, like on a message? I don't know.I've had people offer to pay me just for FaceTime calls and shit.And there was something about me that I could never do that.
To be honest with you, I have to have some kind of feeling or attraction to you for me to really fuck with you like that.
See?It don't work like that for me.I told him that.He didn't believe me, bro.He called me out saying, bro.See?Told you.Let's go back to that then.
I can't do it.Motherfucker.Because he's going to answer the question I already know.Have you had a one-night stand before?
I mean, I've been to some Korean massage parlors and had some 56-year-old ladies give me a massage.No, I'm talking about, have you ever met a chick at a club, smashed, and then never talked to her again?
No.Bam!What'd I say?I told him the same thing, and he don't believe me.
I gotta have interaction.I gotta have emotion.I gotta like somebody if I sleep with them.
I'm not mad at you, bro.That's surprising, dog.Yeah.So when you was fucking all these crazy bitches when you first got to Korea, these were chicks you actually liked.
It's a vibe, you know what I mean?It's for me, like, psychological.Sex is more psychological than anything.Like, I got to be, I got to know them.I got to know someone about them.
I feel like betraying, I don't want to, like, betray myself, and then I don't know.
I'm not mad at that.So let's go back real quick.You didn't answer the question, man.I'm going to reword my question.Where would you like to see yourself in 10 years from now?What would you like to see when you turn 40?
What would you like to see yourself in life, in the world, when you turn 40?
I mean, I just want to be happy and at peace and, you know, maybe have a better relationship with my family. That's really it.I don't really give a fuck.I feel like it's just been so much chaos and so much anger for so long.
The only thing I want is to appreciate the little things and just be happy with what I have.And if more things come, that's cool.And if it doesn't, that's cool too.But I just don't want to be angry anymore and feel like I'm worthless.
I'm going to tell you one thing because you told me a little bit about your story with your parents.I'm going to tell you a little bit about mine.My mom left me when I was a couple months old.
She took me away from my dad and didn't let me see my dad for at least, I think, eight months.During those eight months, she was young.To this day, I'm not mad, but she was young, so she would leave me with people.
I'm talking about leave me at babysitters.They're supposed to be there for a day.I'm there for a whole week.Finally, she dropped me off at my dad's doorstep.I was very malnourished.
I was like, had lice in my hair, Coca-Cola in my bottle, like sick, you know what I mean?So, my dad and his sisters and brothers took me in.Even though my dad took me in, he didn't really raise me.
All I can remember growing up with my dad was that he was running around chasing, trying to find me another mother. You know, I'm talking about, he'll bring a girl home, he been dating for a month, he like, yo, call her mom.
And it was confusing for me, you know what I mean?And then like, like I told you, every time he's beating my ass, you know what I mean?Like getting mad at me, everything like that.
For a long time, I wouldn't say I held a grudge, but I just felt a lot of pain.I remember, I'll never forget, right, like,
My mom, when I got older, she started coming around once a month, once every two months, to just pick me up and take me to go have dinner, and take me to the mall, go buy some shoes.My dad would never buy me nothing, no name brand, no nothing.
And I would get mad, because I see him, he wearing everything nice.But my mom was the only person that would take me, and she'd be like, pick whatever shoes you want.So that was the only way I was able to be cool in school.
Because growing up, back in the day, it was all about the kicks. You know what I mean?No matter what you're wearing, the kicks.And I bring that up because I'll never forget my mom was dating this guy.She met this dude, and his name was James.
And this is the first time I'm talking about this publicly.But bro, James was a cool-ass dude, bro.He was around the same age as my mom, a little bit younger.He was a Chinese dude. You could tell James, he was like a nerd, you know what I mean?
Real quiet dude, but he was a nerd.He wore glasses.But this is when computers started taking off.So you could tell he was a nerd that was probably into computers and became really rich and started working out.
So he was swole as fuck, like damn near like Arnold to me back then. And every time my mom was coming to see me, it would be James.And we started building a relationship to where I was starting to think like, yo, this dude could be like my stepdad.
I really like this guy.Like, he was amazing with me.Always talked to me even when I was with my mom.And I'll never forget one day, my mom picks me up and James ain't there.And she was like, we're going to go eat.
And we're going to go eat with my friend.She's like, hey, but we're going to play a game.And I was like, OK, cool.You know, I'm young.I think I was like maybe 10 or 11. We're going to go, you're my friend.
But if he asks you who you are, tell him you're my nephew.And so I was like, okay, I'm not thinking of anything.You know what I mean?Thinking about it now, it's like, bitch, why even pick me up?You should have just left me at home.
Because there were so many times that she would not show up.You know, we ain't had cell phones back then.She would call me and be like, I'm an hour away.And I wait for three, four hours.She'll never show up.
Don't even call and tell me, you know what I mean? But anyway, so we go eat, bro, and we pull into this restaurant, and I'll never forget this, bro, because to this day, I'm the man I am because of this situation.
We walk in, bro, at the restaurant, and it's an old fucking, he was like a Persian or Indian dude, bro.I'm talking about old.Like, I think, for our man, I think he was like bald, too, like hair on the side bald.
And we having dinner with this dude, bro, and I'm watching this dude the whole time, and the way he look at my mom, like he want to fuck her.So I'm thinking, and I'm thinking to myself, like, where's James?
The more the dinner went by, bro, I started realizing that there's something more going on between my mom and this guy, from the way he's grabbing her or doing whatever, right?And at that moment, bro, I labeled James as the sucker.
And that became such a big thing for me in my life, because in my mind, it was like, here is a guy that is an amazing dude, young, could have any girl he wants, bro.But he's in love with my mom.
And here my mom is, entertaining this lame-ass, stank, whatever, old-ass dude, bro.And for what?Lord knows he probably ain't even had as much money as James, because James was a breader, you know what I mean?
And so all my life, it was like, I never want to be a sucker.You know what I mean?Like, you know, I meet girls now, and I just be like, I ain't never spending no money on a bitch.You got to be my girl for me to buy you shit.You know what I mean?
And some feel like, oh, why?What happened to you?You got hurt by a bitch?No.I seen that with my mama.You know what I mean?And I bring this up because then with my dad, it was like, all my life, it was like, you never giving me no attention.
Like, I'm begging for it, but the only time you ever gave me attention was when you ain't had a bitch. But every time you had a bitch, it was all about the bitch.You know what I mean?And we shared a room together, bruh.
And I remember one time, he picks me up and put me on the floor.And he goes to lay with his girl, thinking I'm asleep.And he's fucking this bitch while I'm in the room.You know what I mean?As a kid, it's just like, I'm seeing this.
You know what I mean?It fucked me up.And it's like, I had a lot of anger, but I was confused.And it was a lot of mixed emotions, bruh.And you know, when I started doing well, I did everything for my dad, my mom, whatever they needed.
You know what I mean?And I realize to this day now, it's like, I love them.I love them to death.I don't hate them, or I don't hold a grudge for them no more.But I learned that to protect my peace, I got to love them from afar.You know what I mean?
You better than me, bro.I'm going to tell you like this, bro.Like, I'll be on the phone with my dad and, like, see how he doing.And then it's like a broken record with him.You know what I mean?
He'll start just saying shit where I feel like he's really trying to talk to himself. You know what I mean?Like, he's preaching to himself or saying shit like that.And that's when I got to tell myself, stop, because I'm getting angry now.
And I want to check him.But I'm like, I can't do that.Not because I'm scared, but I need to protect my peace.Because I'm only going to hurt myself if I keep bringing shit up.You know what I mean?Like, he'll sit there.
And this shit happened maybe a couple weeks ago. Oh, you know, you're such a good father to your kids.I love it.It's amazing.And then he'll be like, you're just like me, though.Because, you know, I did the same thing.
And in my mind, I'm like, you ain't did nothing.And I don't even think he gaslighted me, bro.I think he's so lost. He believed in his own lies.And a lot of people do that, bro.A lot of people get so lost in whatever it is.
Like, I don't know your dad, you know, and I barely know you, but like you said, your dad grew up getting beat and all that stuff, and he don't know any other way.And that's what I used to tell myself.
My dad, his dad died when he was a couple months old.His dad got beat until he died, you know what I mean?Because my family, my grandpa, he looked like a French spy.So the Viet Cong beat him until he died. So my dad grew up, he was still crawling.
So my dad never had a dad growing up.So always I was telling myself, well, he ain't had a dad.You know what I mean?So it's OK.But no, it's not OK.But at the same time, it's just knowing that, hey, got to protect your peace.You know what I mean?
Bro, to reiterate everything, you said it earlier. Was I gonna repeat the cycle what my parents did to me?No, I did the absolute opposite.So did he.
Look, bro, if you decide to have kids one day here and there, I actually think you're probably gonna be a, look, you seem like something on the internet, and I'm one way on the internet.When people see you, you're a lot more poised.
You're actually a lot more realistic. And I see you do have some reservations inside you that you are holding in some things you want to let out.And that's OK.But I think that you a solid dude.We're wrapping this up real quick.
And I just want to ask you one more thing.And, you know, since we have kids and you don't.Right.But I'll give you a better example is that. You came in social media, and now you're seeing you can relate to people.People look up to you.
You got a big following.And that's why I asked, what reason is that?And especially now you said that the reason was because you express yourself.
There are over half a million people that are looking to you to see or talk to you or feel you or relate to you.
Instead of that, having kids, like I was put in a situation when I first had to raise my daughter myself, I asked myself, what am I going to do?I'm scared.I didn't know what to do.
And something in the back of my mind was like, just raise her the way you felt you should have been raised.And not spoil her, do all that stuff, but I saw what my dad did to me.
And like I said, I don't hate him for it no more, but I just know that he showed me a way of an unhealthy relationship.So let me just steer away and do the healthy relationship.You know what I mean?So for you, it's like,
Use your following as your motivation on how you can start protecting your peace and building that place for you.Because it's like, God, I don't know what your beliefs are, but everybody has a higher power.
And your higher power puts you in a place to have the following you have to build something for yourself.There's a reason why the videos that get the most attraction are you expressing yourself or being depressed, because God wants to show you
We love you.People love you.And there's over half a million people that you're helping right now.You're helping them, bro.You know what I mean?
Yo, two things real quick.Is there anything that we haven't talked about that you want to talk and share with, you know, the platform?No, I mean... You think you've said what you need to say?
Yeah, I mean, I just want to say that no matter how bad it seems, you know, nobody's perfect. You try your best and have a dream or goal or motivation.Anybody can do anything, especially nowadays with social media and everything.
So just don't give up.And life is worth living.Not every day is going to be good.Not every day is going to be bad.
I told my daughter this saying, bro, and I learned this a couple years ago, bro.Life is hard as fuck, bro.It's fucking hard.Anybody telling you life is easy, they full of shit, man.Life is hard as fuck. But it's worth it.
It's fucking worth it, bro.Is there anything that you want to ask me or Jimmy?If not?
I just want to say thank you guys for having me.As an Asian person, I feel like you guys are motivational as well.There's not many people who do what you do confidently, and you guys are bosses.And I feel like you guys help people a lot, too.
And just thank you so much.
We appreciate that.And you a boss, too, man.Literally, man.
You have to understand, Doug.I think that you'll realize more now in this last hour or so that my life is way deeper than jewelry or anything you see shiny or any kind of other shit, right?
Like, my life is about my kids, golf, everything else is secondary.You know what I'm saying?Or really not relevant anymore.And as you get older, I think you've already realized, because you don't seem like you have any materialistic... I don't care.
I just want to be happy, man.Yeah, that's it, though.Peace.Well, look, bro, look.As you're young, You got my number now?Hit me up, you ain't bothering me?Let's go get some fucking Kogi.You eat meat, right, please?Yeah, yeah.
He beat meat, he gotta eat it, too.If he's gonna tell me he's vegan, I was gonna smack him right now and be like, yo.Hell yeah, how you beat all that meat?So are you beating meat or what are you beating, right?You wanna hear something funny?
You wanna hear something really funny? My dad was a fucking Moksan even.So, you know, Koreans are so fucking religious.They named you Moses, bro.I was like, God damn, bro.You know, you Korean for real, for real.Bro, thank you for coming on.
I definitely, man, appreciate you.
Guys, that was Moses, man.Guys, make sure you subscribe.Hit the subscribe button.Like I said, you motherfuckers, 68% of you motherfuckers watching this don't subscribe.You just watching and not pushing the subscribe button.
Just hit the subscribe button.And we know who you are.Yeah. About to watch, motherfucker.All right, y'all, we out of here.Make sure we check, look it.Every Friday, same bad time, same bad channel.Big shout out to my dog Moses again, man.Sushi Tattoo.
